downloadable suicide's Journal

9:34am: sleepwalker
oh shit sonny son son...

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7:12pm: fuck it
i sometimes crack myself up.. i am so awesome it's insane. i am sooo fuckin stoked that my fucking amanda is in town... and gets to spend time with my little bella. i can't wait for bella to go shopping with us. it's gonna be fuckin awesome. I LOVE MY LITTLE GIRL. I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. I LOVE MY FUCKIN MANDA. and I LOVE MY FAMILY. the end.. ps if you have a problem with my girl you have a problem with me. and i am a GROOOOWN ASSSSSSS WOMEN.. HAHAHAHAHHA

11:34am: i like water
any day now kyle and i will be parents.

12:37pm: nice
i really don't have much to say.. maybe just i hate chris and i miss amanda. just kidding i don't hate chris, i just don't like him. haha

2:29pm: i can't think
in the process of moving into our new home. it's exciting. and chris was nice enough to help me move some stuff in yesterday. we really lucked out on this place. once we are all settled in .. maybe a house warming get together... chris mentioned it. gosh i hate chris.

mmmm and sonic was good lastnight.

1:54pm: over slept
haven't been to the movies in a long time, and that's not like me and kyle. maybe today? anything good playing? i know we can't wait till White Noise comes out. shit looks creepy. anyway everything has been right on track and we couldn't be happier. i go in for another ultrasound this monday. and we are most likely to do that 3d ultrasound. not sure yet.

4:31pm: so......

KYLE AND I ARE HAVING A BABY GIRL!!!!!!!

5:21pm: kyle did this to me...

and i wouldn't have it any other way <3

by the way i went to go see alejandro fernandez a few days ago and it kicked major ass. kyle even went with me because thats just the kind of boyfriend he is! i love how he didn't know what the hell was going on. haha

ooooh i love you. monday we both find out the sex of the baby.

1:35pm: but why?

FOR EVERY ANIMAL YOU DON'T EAT...

I AM GOING TO EAT 3!

9:35am: 15 weeks and 5 days.

it's been awhile. haven't really been in the mood to update this lovely journal of mine. but anyway, in other news on sept. 20th kyle and i get to find out if i am carrying a boy or a girl. i have a feeling it's going to be a girl.

i am going back to work this friday. i really hope i can handle dealing with customers.

last sunday was my my b-day and a few of us went to go see napoleon dynamite... and for amanda and i it was our 3rd time... for kyle his second and for chris his first. amanda left lastnight to new york, very sad about that. but i am so happy for her. i'll miss her a lot.... :(

kyle and i saw open water on his b-day which was friday... and we enjoyed it. not alot of people did. ok it's time to eat something..

5:37pm: new life

i am the happiest girl in the world. that's all there is to it. i can't wait ... this journey has begun. kyle kennedy has made me the person i am today. changed my life in so many ways. i am sooooo fuckin grateful for this blessing. i wish he was here with me right now so we can watch bad santa,

it's amazing how wonderful it feels to be with the one true person who knows you and loves you so much it hurts. spending the rest of our lives together is really nice to write about.

it's even better that we both work at the same place now :) i need to paint my nails.

8:04pm: word is DOUCHE

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2:11pm: kinda late but hey its coachella

 hot as hell in indio califas.

 i am so buff.

 me and the atmosphere .. yeah he is on his knees. so what? haha

12:44am: MOZ

so i waited in line till it hit 12 tonight to purchase the new morrissey cd and let me tell you it is kickin fuckin ass right now. i am such in a good mood.

ok..

8:32pm: another one

 

the cutest.

8:14pm: doggy

so this is me...

 

and this is my little doggie BOJO..

this pic is toooooo dark to see how cute he really is. he makes kyle and i happy. i would take a pic of my lil durden too but he doesn't like his pics taken.

i saw 13 going on 30. loved it. i guess i just like movies with a lot of 80's music and that are about being in love with the kid you grew up with lovey dovey kinda movies.

um yeah then tonight godsend...i think.

3:16pm: chipped nails

soooooooooooo i love kyle. what else. so HIM was boring live. i was not impressed. i hope he dies by next year from all his dumb smoking. also 18v was not cool whatsoever. james hart was one ugly guy that does not need to be thinking he is some kind of rockstar that can parade around the stage with his shirt off with just a tie. i don't think so.

don't get me wrong i like HIM a lot. kyle got me into them. but shit man put on some kind of show instead of smoking the whole time and thinking anything you say is worth listening to... oh yeah you are friends with BAM who fuckin cares. just sing dammit. ok thats all.

i love kyle

11:57am: dirty little tricks
i am tired from the floor move. kyle is at work. i am on livejournal. i want to go see a movie today. maybe a nap first? maybe not. i want to go see my doggies. i want to dye my hair brownish. i need something to eat. i wish SWAN was on or I WANT A FAMOUS FACE. i want to go shopping. i can't wait till HIM. ok i'm done.

9:10pm: pain killers are killer man

boy oh boy do i love kyle kennedy.

i hate cramps. and let me tell you i get the worse case of them. i am kinda out of it right now but oh well. i want to go see mean girls but i don't feel good. i want to go out to eat but i don't feel good. the only good right now is kyle. i love how he talks to me. no one ever talks to me like that. he makes me feel good. and if he could make the pain go away i know he would in a heartbeat.

i can hear him singing in the other room to haste the day while he is folding clothes. i don't do that :/ but i try to help pick up.. like make the bed sometimes. or like organize his cds.

tomorrow i do a floor move for work. meaning 10 pm - 6 am. meaning .. nothing really. mothers day this sunday. HIM sunday night. i can't wait till mothers day is for me. i get soooo stoked when it is .. cuz it makes my mommy happy. moms should always feel happy. if only it was that easy huh. i just hope my mom knows she means the world to me. she was my mom and dad growing up. my dad is a joke and only did one good thing for me.. which was not being in my life. ok so now kyle is screaming along with cursive. it's like he can't get enough. although he now likes MUSE :)

 

10:50pm: coachellas

coachella..... FUCK WAS IT AWESOME. ok sooooo yeah kyle and i nearly died from the inferno. now when i think of indio califronia i think of oh the inferno. anyway... the food was shitty and way too expensive but that didn't STOP us from purchasing, but we probably spent over 200 bucks on drinks. did i mention that it was hot as hell?

anyway... i have a fun little story to share about jared leto.

so as we are watching the stills. meaning kyle and i of course. we are talking about how much better they were at the troubadour a few months back, and kyle turns to me and says look it's jordan catalano. we pass him by and kyle decides that he should fuck with him, so we are maybe like 3 people behind him at this point and kyle waits till the song was over and everyone was done clapping to yell really loud HARRY GOLDFARB! we didn't get any response. we waited for the next song to be over to repeat this. HARRY GOLDFARB!!!!!! then jared leto turns around with his hands in the air " I GOT IT! OK I GOT IT THE FIRST TIME. VERY FUNNY" he was looking around aimlessly to see who said it. but he didn't know it was us. but fuck he was right it was very funny.

how about kyle telling me he would feel like a complete goof if he went up to atmosphere.. so guess what i did i went up to him told him i liked his stuff and asked for a picture with him. he was very nice. kyle didnt look to happy.

BUT THE BEST. AIR, MUSE AND THE CURE. just as i thought. awesome awesome awesome. i was sooooo pleased with MUSE but confused on how many people were there to see them. last year you could of asked random people and been like you like muse? moose? you mean?

so seeing the CURE ... enough said.

ok so cursive was ok. but kyle loved them. i am not into them but i did like that milkshake song they did. kyle went to coachella with me just to see cursive. i only went to see 3 bands AIR, MUSE and THE CURE.

sidenote: kyle and i found a hotel room 30 mins away from indio, and we put that baby to use.

 

5:19pm: coachellaaaaaa

this is us before heading down to coachella.. and the funny thing is we already BE LOOKING like we drove for days.

 

HOLY CRAP COACHELLA THIS WEEKEND. we leave tonight at 1 or 2 in the AM. a lot of redbull, crack cocaine, singing, some redbull vodkas, painting nails, touching pee pees, and some boobies, flipping cars off, meaning the people in em, picking noses, farting, and not to mention hot car sex.

12:43pm: hairdresser on fire

the boy up there is my baby and means the whole world to me.

that smile of his is going to be the end of me.

"  i wanna be a kennedy"

in a couple of days i will be enjoying the hot sun with kyle in indio california. THE CURE and MUSE. couldn't ask for more. so tonight i shall be at work missing kyle, thinking of how much fun it will be this weekened away from vegas, and missing kyle some more...

so the other day my mom was looking at my tattoo of my lastname PICASSO. and she was like i should of named you Frances Cano Peña, cuz then you wouldn't have tattooed your lastname since it's not a famous one. but then she later admits that she likes it. my moms name sounds so pretty Blanca Estella Cano Peña.

but i love Frances Cano Picasso for me .. well for now..

2:04pm: stella

oh it hurts to be this good....

 

2:56pm: bad boy

my dog who is named durden has been a bad boy. this suckah just went PEE PEE on the bed!!!

but he is sooooo freaking cute. i can't stay mad at my baby durden. anyways i just got home from taking my sister and my momma out for lunch. they thought the whole purpose of me doing something like that is to reveal a pregnancy. haha. i couldn't help but laugh for a couple of minutes over that. as for little frankies running around, not yet. when i do have kids ALL BOYS! ...

so kyle " I won't share you" .... 

i am listening to the smiths and yeah ...enough said. i say when i get off of work tonight which will be pretty late. i come home to a naked boy in bed with a HARD COCK waiting for me :)

 

1:10pm: fucking CUNTY CUNTSWABS

 

If I could take your pain and frame it
And hang it on my wall...

Maybe you would never have to hurt at all......

coachella in like 8 days. i am so fuckin stoked. i wish i could have went to see morrissey real bad. my sister went and said he was a lot nicer than he was last time in san diego. damn i miss san diego. las vegas is a shithole. mark my fuckin words. hmmm today i am going to the hard rock to tan it up. i am half mexican i need to be a nice browny brown color for summer.

so kyle and i had really good sex this morning. i would go into it some more but i know most of you can careless. so why do i even bother to mention it? good question.

today is my day off. i like having fridays off. i just do. it feels nice. it feels like i deserve it. i tell you the people that come into diesel sometimes make you want to have a whole fuckin month off. i take that back. make it two weeks.